Am I Still Abiding?

Well, it's been a long time since I wrote in this blog.  Summer seems to come and take over. I must confess that my morning devotionals and abiding turn into afternoon sessions because I golf and my tee times are very early in the morning.  Last year I didn't seem to have an issue getting out of bed early, but this year seemed a bit laboured.  Perhaps it was because I didn't get up earlier and spend time with God and I usually did.  His word fuelled me for the day.  I actually missed doing that, but my love of golf took priority.  Hmmm....something to consider for next year.  What is my priority??  Good question.  I would like to think that God is my priority but I know that is not the case on many occasions. I constantly think of Him, but do I spend the same amount of time?  No.  They say confession is good for the soul and I do feel better sharing here.  Maybe it's a struggle many go through.  In my previous church, I would feel condemned and that is not God.  He does not put condemning thoughts in our hear.  In my current church, I am learning what it is like to be loved and not judged by what I do.  If I miss a Sunday, I don't get grilled about where I was last week...I get hugged and told that it's good to see me.  That is family in my books.  I am learning not to listen to the voice of the enemy that tells me I have to 'religiously' go to church or I am a bad Christian.  I don't feel guilty.  So the first part of the year, when I was abiding in His Presence more, I have learned not to strive to be accepted, not to feel guilty and certainly not to judge.  Do I screw up...absolutely.  But I am quick to ask forgiveness and move on, just like the Bible says to do.  So, as the days grow shorter toward the end of summer, I get up just as early and spend time with Him.  That makes me happy.  Starting my day with God is the best thing that ever happened to me.  I have tried over the years, to do things my way, and there has always been something missing.  I would rather have joy and peace in my daily routine than stress and anxiety.  Abiding is the best way to reach that goal.  Let's see how I do for the rest of the year!  Be blessed today, I know I am blessed just to be alive for such a time as this!